stream of consciousness is something I learned this year in english.
which i currently no longer want to be a TA for due to certain circumstances and I do not think martinez likes me very much. and that makes me sad when I think that she might not like me. but its not like it matters.
but what matters is facebook.
no it really doesnt, who am i kidding. Its great for "keeping in touch" [with who, the people you see most often?] but otherwise ehh. but today everyone was thinking of memories of everyone else and it was just wonderful.
smiles and happy and happy.
but I go onto other blogs and get kinda sad thinking that its so much like a circle it kinda reminds of of that one complicated prom thing that will never be mentioned as long as I can help it. pwaha.
but its nice to just type this out and beause it is o9ne oclock in the morning, I am not really thinking about the concequences this could bring. I mean really, what can someone use this for? blackmail?
I doubt it. my mind may be weird but not silly enough to warrant suficent blackmail material.
but oh my goodness. I get so mad thinking about people some times
and when I think im getting mad I dont want to think about it anymore so issues kinda nerver get solved in my mind.
but yes, I am very tired and I really want to sleep and everyone else at home is already asleep and I am awake because I work on stupid project that freaken pained me to do.
swear swear swear if I do not get help on this I will explode like freaken hiroshima.
history eww. I really do not need so many projects and presentations and experiments. my mind is going numb and Im afraid I cannot stand doing this much longer.
I do miss my happier days where I really didnt have a care in the world and where i was cool with everything and everyone. I dislike disliking things for obvious reasons. I dislike it when stories and twisted into ugly little half truths and it makes me want to punch punch punch like no tomorrow.
now that I think about it, I need to learn my neighbor's name. that will be my goal this summer?
Because I need to gather courage daily to talk to a complete stranger and then release it all in a moment and run away.
oh i know myself really well, thank you.
but yeah. getting later and I swear im starting to see rainbows.
nvm, my color paper just threw up all over my desk.
yay